You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Only goodness and faithful love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD as long as I live.     Psalm 23:5-6 HCSB

Fed up is defined as being annoyed at a situation or treatment. There was a time in my life when I felt as though I was fed up with everything. My job wasn’t going well. My relationships weren’t going well. It felt as though my life was spinning out of control. I committed myself to church. I read my Bible and I prayed. I prayed for God to change my situations. I prayed for God to change those around me. I prayed for Him to change everything but me. I thought I was doing just fine. I thought that if God would only change everyone around me things would be much better.

But, the more I prayed the worse things seemed to get. I just didn’t get it. I couldn’t understand. I understood that the devil didn’t want me to surrender to God. I knew He didn’t want me to be any more committed that the half-hearted commitment that I was already offering God. I also thought that God would understand. I mean after all He controls everything. He could have changed the people around me if He wanted to. He could have changed my situations if he wanted to. I prayed and things only got worse.

It would seem that the obvious thing to do at this point would be to give up going to church, reading my Bible and praying. After all, it wasn’t working out so well for me. But I had been raised to trust in God. I knew something wasn’t right, but I just couldn’t put my finger on it. So, I trudged on with a half-hearted commitment and deliberate sins in my life that I just couldn’t let go of and I prayed. I continued to pray for God to change those people around me and change my situation for the better.

Finally, I got fed up. I was so frustrated. I stayed focused on what was wrong with the people in my life. I began to grumble and complain about my situation. I felt as though I just couldn’t take it anymore. I cried out to God.

I can remember this moment like it was yesterday. Finally, God got it through my thick skull that I had to change. It made sense, right? If I’m fed up with everything around me, what is the common denominator? It’s me. God made it very clear to me as I was whining and crying out to Him that I had to change. I had to strive for His righteousness. I had to give up the deliberate sin in my life. I had to focus on Him and Him alone. I had to trust Him to take care of everything else.

I won’t lie to you the days ahead were hard. When I made a commitment to trust in God and focus on Him and let Him take care of everything else, things began to change at a rapid pace. My relationships changed. My situation changed. Even though I had prayed for this it was a little scary.  I had a friend who used to say that the snakes you know are less scary than the snakes you don’t know. I prayed for change, but I was afraid for things to change. Change is scary. Sounds crazy, right?

As these changes occurred, I had to trust God more and more. I had to focus on Him more and more. When the tests came, I had to stay in His word to know what to do. I had to pray and keep an open line of communication with Him. In time I was able to go from being fed up to being well fed.

Matthew 6:33 tells us that if we will just focus on God that He will take care of all that we need. Romans 8:28 tells us that all things work for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose. I just needed to love Him with all my heart. I needed to focus on Him, not my circumstances. I needed to trust Him to take care of the rest.

Are you fed up or well fed? He wants to take good care of you if you will only trust Him to do so. Give it all over to Him today.

Have a great day!